wat is that!

Now i am on the clubhouse and i am really bored to the death. I wish i can escape to somewhere.

I think i really can’t forget it; i mean it is not so easy to forget sometink that i have decided to do. What am i going to do? It is like if i dun see him, i dun have the weird feelings. i mean it is easy for me to talk to the girl but the guy is like a barrier lah. I am really confused.

Now trap in this small and confine area, having to see them so sweet and everyone is teasing them; i really dunno wat to said. Serious i tink i need to find sometink to discuss myself.

It’s ok; i shall forget the whole scene and go and find another 1. Haha, as if i could.

Hi everyone, been really busy this days.

If you been wondering if wat i been doing this few days, went for Pre-U seminar and NDP 07 leader training while coping with my e-learning projects.
If you r also wondering who is superwoman, it is me, haha =)

Thanx to shnag ming, adeline, xiao hui, chuan hai and victor for being there during Pre-U seminar.
Big thanx to shang ming for accompanying me thru those lat nights. Really sorry that u r unable to rest well, haha.
To me, i didn’t really enjoy Pre-U seminar compared to poly forum 2006.
I shall not comment much on this blog, if any 1 will like to know more about Pre-U seminar, u can come and ask me haha =)

If you out there is still trying to know what has happened to me emotionally, wait till i have really recover before i can tell about it. Seriously, i was hurt but as superwomen nothing is too horrible to me. I will recover, just give me some more time.

Shall stop here as need to do work… bye everyone!

why is the horoscope reading so accurate? Do i really have to leave the past as it is? Y must i, it is all i have, all those memories to peak me up when i am so moody.

Tml will be going to far east to shop, hope to get a pair of flats. Anyway i am running out of ideas and am now emo. Is there any1 able to revamp superwomen and keep her running?

Today didn’t go to k as my friend has sorethroat am thus i decided we shouldn’t go as it will waste her money. K-box i miss u a lot. i want to sing for all i care, i need to destress really.

Need to recover from the emoing, any idea msn me.

Hi every1, superwomen is here 2 visit.
Nw as i blog, it is 2.33 thursday may 17,2007. Can believe i have being sleeping later and later everyday.It just seems to me that everyday i dun have enough time to do all my stuff.
I know i can’t get an additional 24hrs from god. I will need a lot of encouragement and help, hope the special 1 is there.
anyway, recently i was looking for guardian angel  but to my dissapointed + happiness, i found only a female angel. Where are u ‘male’ angel? Hiding?
anyway, FO event was a success, all praises should go to judy as i did very little compared to her. Thanx every1 for leaving me such nice memories which i can lock up and flash back when i have ‘grow’ up.
To all those who went to long john silver and starbucks, i really enjoy those talk whereby u trash out everything and forget all abt it once it is out in the sir.My burden was a lot lighter after tat talk.
Currently, i had slack for finally 1 wk and i am back to my hectic schedule, hope i survive or else you guys out there will not be able to c me.
Got a bomb just a few day ago, i can’t believe i need to take over the household after 15 August 2007. Oh no, after national day, how can i cope? I will need to train myself now or else superwomen will be gone with the wind.
To all those out there, a advice please go with the wind when you really cant stand it. I believe everything will go well when the time is here.

Now, i got to pray tat tis happened to me when e-learning starts.
My wishes for now are just very simple, i can’t play anymore, will have to start to go back to my o’level style and chio all the way to the end ever if there is no light to guide me there.
I pray for my ‘male’ guardian angel to appear asap as my female guardian angel is 2 far for me and i believe she does not have time for me.

Today, i went to Chinatown and took photos for my ucd project and i notice the change in this ‘old lady’. I always remember it as it has a very special place in my heart.This is the place i bought my clothes,i would my grandma and aunt and shop, bring my Malaysia aunt for typical delicious singapore local food. Now tinking abt the past just make me so sad. I mean why cant people reamain the same and never change, i serious dun understand.

I am really overwhelmed at this point of time and i am afraid i will cry as i remember the past. But is it true i got to put down the past and go on with my life?
Y is the past a fairytale that last for so short? Am i really tat bad that god wants to punish me and make me suffer so tat i will learnto grow up?
Ok, i should just forget about it, i mean y should i start it anyeay since tml i am going to k. How can i let myself get so emotion when i need most energy now.

Good luck guys in RRR. Hope u all take the paperweight trophy back.

Now for real wishes, I wish to peacefully cross this period and have a happi ending.
Got to cope with the responsibility of being head of the household and as well as finding potentail membership secretary to take over me.
SPENV members out there, tink u have the potential to be a committee member and interested in membership secretary, please msn me. thanx. I would realy appreciate.

Tml is k and RRR tryout, hope they will cheer me up. i really need those concern. only a ‘ r u ok’ would really touch my heart. i no need romantic words or fake concern. Just a sincere r u ok is gd enough for me already.

Really need to clean my head and focus now, i apologise in advanceto those i pissed off as this is notpeak period. I hope people will understand. If u dun understand, y r u reading my blog? It shows u do not koe me well enough and is in no position to question me.

What am i crapping? On no, wat have i done!?

yesterday, my mood was very good till at night. Anyway it is small matter. Today, my big brother make my mood worse. He forget his promise so many time liao. He never bring me to malaysia again. I am so angry until i put my nick" how so i change my mood when i am pissed off" i tink it is sometink like that.

Everyone who saw my nick was concern and finally after some toking and stuff, i regain my mood and i was very happy.

Then when i saw sebastian japan’s photo, i was reminded my days when i was young and had fun at japan. Those day should be my favourite days. I would love to go to japan again. I really missed those day. Anyway i have recovered and it is time to work again.

Today is short but fun.

Tml is prep camp. We are suppose to meet at 9am at sch. I believe i will be very tired.
Just dunno why, but i can’t sleep now.

Anyway, got good but bad news this afternoon. I was ask back to work again, should i go? I am not really in need of money but do i really want to forgone the additional income i can get? Anyone can advice me on this?

I know i got my debts to pay, my studies, my cca and my personal time. Anyway forgetting about all these crap,thurs was a amazing day.

Finally meet my beloved shasha, it been long since i met her. Ever thought we live so near each other. I really missed the time we always go home together after band practice. Those time was so enjoyable and relaxed. Now, stress till i am out of my mind. We met and ate westmall. She still didn’t change, still the ‘monkey’ i remember. We ate, talk and crap about all stuff. I really enjoy by sitting ther and heard her and ade talk non stop. I finally found out that when i was with my secondary sch friends, i and to quite but with SPENV friends, i am like a mad women who will not shut her mouth. haha =) how amazing a person can be in 2 different situation.

Learnt a lot of crap from shasha and ade. 1 of it is u ask" do u  wan to go?" Normally, people would reply, "go where?" and ur answer would be"under-where". it will only be funny if you understand. Another is why is the sea so friendly? Ans: Sea waves hehe=) I tink i should blog till here. It is already 2.30am. i tink i better sleep liao or i can’t wake up. bye everyone.

It been another long time since i update my blog. I believe it been a been 4 months since i blog. The reason why i having been blogging was i was not very emotional stable till recently.

What i been doing recently are mainly having my biggest exams, getting my results and luckily for me, i didn’t flunk any subject. However, my results are horrendous louse. I got 2.94 for cumulative GPA. Oh my god, what happened to me. I believe i am easily satified by my GPA 3.46 and i thought it was ok till my GPA had such a big dive down the drain. So my aim for year 2 is i much work hard ever if i had to forgone my CCA. So i said a sorry in advance if i really have to give up CCA for my studies.But i believe you all will understand that studies is the basic to most of our success in future cos no matter how the government wants to change the idea that personal development is as important as studies; however i think this will not change till there is really a culture revolution. I know i am going out of point.

So i come back to my progress,got into environment club and became a membership secretary, i thought the job scope was only to call and email members about SPENV club events. Little didn’t i know was that i was suppose to take up so much stuff, anyway i managed to get pass the events, such as freshman orientation enrollment, propose discover the wonder with us and start SEF, freshman orientation camp, paper recycling project and earth day. By looking at the events i have on my hand, i think i will be exhausted before the term start but am glad at least i this stuff to make my holiday a fulfilling 1. Anyway, i am not the chair of all the upcoming events but still busy. I hope the FO camp will be a success. All the best Shi Min.

Back track, after the release of my results, i was disappointed but glad at the very least i got into retail major and better, i got into the same class as my classmates. Ever thought, there may be conflict here and there, but i believe that i will survive, in fact i can ask more of a friend then them who tolerate with my nonsense. Thanks everyone fro being there when i needed a shoulder to cry on, or a shirt to wipe my tears. I really appreciate your care and concern. I hope one day i could repay to you all.

Typing till here, it reminds me that there is this special friend one that i take for granted, Adeline. I am really sorry i was to busy these day to go out and have fun with you. I promise you that we will go and have our photos taken the next time we went out again. I serious missed you lah. Hai yo, why can’t we be in the same poly as will same course? Anyway, i have no idea how to put into words to tell you how much you mean to me. I think i will just said ‘ i love you’ .

Some of the friends that are missed by me are Farisha, the bubbly girl that give me a note to cheer me up during  O levels which i still keep it, the childhood friend that i know for so long, Jocelyn, seriously you have grow a lot prettier and i dare said you can now post as a threat to Sheryl that said you was ugly when you was young.

But to my life, went to Nyaa tribal camp which cause me to be carrying another bundle on my heavy backpack. From this camp, i make a lot of friends and i got my spirit to go on. However, i got another problem too. so on overall i think this is one good camp. This credit definite goes to Gabriel and Victor.

Thru the FO enrollment, i found some potential in the few active members but was disappointed  in some way or another. I think some will know what i am saying. Anyway, I can’t expect much too.

Finally today is the revelation og angel and morta for ours.
This is the order:

Me-Emily-Tze Wee-Sheryl-Chen Qing-Jun Sheng- Sebestian- Manlin- Hui San-Hui Ting-Yvonne-Nathanial-Mina-Chee Wee-Jeremy-Me!

Wang qian=Jeremiah
Pathiban=Serene

So in all i find it fun!! It was a sucess, but the christmas celebration was a bit bored loh….i believe it will be better next time. Finally study break but i got to work next whole week from 11-4 mon till sun. i am sure to die 1 loh… i better start my fom now loh or else sure cannot make it 1 loh..

Recentally, i have been very unhappy for many stuff but i lean that i got to control or it will cause world war 3 but than i am so hot temper than it is always so difficult to control loh… i tink i need someone to tell me to stop all this thinking or i will never be happy and i will always live in sadness, in the black hole and unable to recover.

Now is 3.45 in the morning of december 10….8 more days to official 3 weeks holiday!!

Anyway, i am still at camp loh….damn sian 1 loh i tell u but got 1 interesting part of all is that i get to dance for all i care after so long…

Anyway kind of late me going blog tml!! bb =)

nI tink it been like ten years since i blog….. i believed that there is many things that i got to said but i am afraid it will hurt others people feelings so i decided to kept to myself….however there are sometink that i cannot stand at all 1 loh…. so i tink i will blog about it on sunday when i finished my camp.

Now i am having my camp and i am the food ic …..i am stoning lah i tell u loh…. i finshed i was campers or ever worst i wish i was a home lah….why this come into my mind is because of a lot of tinks….some may tink i am damn emotional but this is how a girl brain works 1 loh…. forget it i will continue to blog on sunday….

the laptop i using going to no battery liao.