It is going to a long entry…..so if u are not prepare, dun read. Haha!!
Anyway a lot of things have happened since my last entry, i got hurt badly recently but i have learn to become stronger too after the incident. I know sometimes people didn’t mean what they said and i understand cos sometimes i do such stupid mistake too.
I dun is it i am to mature or extremely immature cos i am confused now. I dunno lah…cos i feel that i am trapped in BTW and i have no idea to do. I mean to help them but on the other side is a more interesting world. I understand that it is tough to be a good person forever cos i believe there is always good and evil in everyone and it only matters which side is stronger.
So to my outcast grp, dun feel sad, there is always people who is more unfortunate than u and when u think of them, i tell u that u will definite feel a lot better or u will feel like u are the most fortunate. An advice i give to u all which i learned, dun try to change yourself for people, do it for yourself cos its ur life and not theirs. So stop feeling sad and depresses, try ur best as what the pacc lecturer said " bite the bullet". Tell yourself :" I can do it, all i need is some confidence." Believe in yourself and u will gain confidence as u mature. Trust yourself to help yourself and not on others as other are just there SOMETIME and not always.
Many may said i am very confidence in my work and i take pride of myself but this all come with a price. In my secondary sch days, i was never the center of attraction ever though i wish i was. But dreams will always remains as dreams. I was always the spare tire of people. So i always dun have friends who i can trust. An at that point of time, i drop deep into depression due to some family problems ever though i seems strong on the outside. So i wore a face for my whole 4 years to cover up my sadness. Ever since i came into poly, i told myself to accept facts as they are and be confidence abt everything. So u see, I wasted my best 4 years in my life which should be the best times of one’s life; but i gain something that will help me thru the rest of my life.
Last comment, dunno bother to look at past and compare cos if u will to do that, u will miss all the fun and days will passed and u will die sadly and unsatisfied. Work hard and get what u wan now at this point and moment and not regret doing it cos LIFE IS PRECIOUS!
Just done my CD, wish me luck that i do well for my CD presentation….. haha!
Coming up is like FOM pbl,NE,mid term test, e-learning. Stress….
Adeline, an advanced happy birthday to u! Thanks for being there when i need a shoulder to cry on. I know i should find one liao but i am not ready for it yet. I have so much thinks on my hand and i dun think i cope ever if i have 1. Haha so i decided i should concentrate on my studies now and let nature take its course.
All of a sudden i found some of my strength, i am so much stronger than i though i was lah. Anyway i think i kind of a consoler to some loh.
